I don't need anyone to hold me
I can hold my own
I got highways for stretchmarks
See where I've grown


so earlier today i discovered new stretch marks. BOO! i made it to almost 32 weeks without any new ones. and now here they are. :(

fuckedy fuck.

but there is NOTHING i can do about it at this point.
except perhaps cry. complain. whine. etc.

though it is super frustrating to know that i have a month left before finn is supposed to come out...and that i'm just going to keep growing bigger...and that i can't just stop eating. FUCK. because if i weren't pregnant, i would just stop eating. that's what i do when i feel fat and gross. so it's pretty frustrating to not be able to do a damn thing about this weight thing right now. :(

and these stretch marks are on my stomach. YUCK. i've never had stretch marks on my stomach before. not with milo. not ever. i'm pretty appalled.

i need to stop bitching though.
these are my badges of honor.
they show where i've been.
and what i've been through.

so here's to sucking it up and trying not to freak out about it (too much) during the next month.