i am not feeling very strong lately.
i'm usually superwoman...meaning that i can handle anything.
my shit and everyone else's too.

lately, i'm super emotional and hormonal.
i cry at the drop of a hat.
and while a good cry feels great...
i feel so weak.

i miss ryan so goddamn much.
it really hurts.

being an army wife is a fuckin' bitch sometimes.
i hate not being able to talk to my husband when i want to.
or need to for that matter. :(

i haven't heard from him in over a day.
so that means that he probably made it back to his army post.
and he's probably getting fucking screamed at for being late.
as if it's his fault the army fucked up and took away our whole paycheck so that he couldn't buy a ticket back and was forced to travel Space A.
then the whole north korea thing...all of the Space A flights have been packed full of officers and such for war meetings. so ryan has been stranded.
but his chain of command are assholes. and they won't care about any of that.
they will just chew his ass and punish him. it's bullshit.

so here i am.
little miss insomnia.
crying my eyes out.

i feel like a winner.