i'm really high and floating from taking a ton of midrin pills for migraines today plus ambien in hopes of sleepint it all away. now here i am, awake and fucking STONED. i can't even walk without weaving all over the place and hallucinating like mad crazy. hahaha.

i'm pretty amused. but i woke up starving and craving pizza. i want pizza at holdens. but here are mad people over there right now. i don't think i could handle that right now. too fucking OUT OF REALITY. and not in the chill stoned way. more like the tripped out way.

don't think i can handle trying to find the place he orders from then calling and having to have a normal conversation. and payment information? oh fucking hell. hahaha. so confusing. :P

so instead i ate a chocolate ice cream cone. and i'm listening to some tranced out underground hip hop from back in the day. it's quite enjoyable.


in other news. milo was here.
loved seeing my big boy.
he is such a crack up. so full of life and energy.
i love him so much.
we bad a really good visit together. <3
i wish he could have stayed longer than two days.
but his dad drove him down 8 hours from fairbanks.
and must go back to work tomorrow. boo.
milo is so stoked to be a big brother.
he wants to meet the baby now. too cute. :)

while milo's dad, jeff, was here...we went and bought a baby swing.
yay!! such a relief for me to finally have a baby swing!
it's appalling how expensive baby swings are!
i found one of the super nice ones on sale though! plus i had a coupon!
super score!! it was like 55 dollars off. yes!
so milo helped jeff and i put it together.
it's rather cute. though it will be much cuter with a baby finn in it!
i can't wait!!

stay in my uterus just one more week finn! i'm 35 weeks today!
he's "allowed" to be born and considered "full term" at 36 weeks! :) next sunday!! <3
i've been having "real" and painful contractions for a few days now though.
so we'll see what happens this week. :)

okay, i'm too high on prescriptions to function anymore. typing. and thoughts. beyond me.


xoxo,
bee